Jocelyne Colombe

Bio:  I was fortunate to be born from parents and grandparents whose focus was family and giving back.  They readily shared what they had without thought of whether they would get anything back.  To this day, my parents go out of their way to assist others less fortunate in health and spirit.  This legacy of ‘living from the heart’ has been passed onto me.  In turn, I am here to share it with you. 

It has been quite a challenge for my parents to keep me on task.  As a 2 year old, I turned blue for unknown reasons according to our family doctor.  My life was entrusted to a saint my mother believed in.  The blue spells went away.  At age 8, I attempted once again to leave the planet stricken by a virus nobody else had.  Hospitalized for over one month, my parents made every effort to be with me even though they had a newborn baby at home and 3 other children, my siblings.  Isolated from other patients, I had an insight one day: I am here to help others care for one another in a gentle manner.  This would shape the rest of my life and decisions which my own mind would question time and time again.

Many lessons have prepared me for such endeavor.  I pushed away some comforts to learn some challenging lessons.  Of course, I was unaware of this at the time, sleeping or sleepwalking through life, if you will.  I moved to the US as a teenager speaking fluent Canadian French and very little English.  I vowed to master the language and blend-in.  Upon High School graduation, although the field of architecture was my love, it was dominated by men and intimidating to me so I chose nursing. 

I felt compassion for sick people yet could not stand the sight of blood.  “Are you sure you want to be a nurse, questioned my mother?”  I felt it was the right option at the time or was it my soul guiding me?  I was told that I worked intuitively yet had no clue I did.  The word intuition actually scared me.  I wanted little babies to receive better care from resident doctors.  I talked to the hospital C.E.O. into creating a position for me as a nurse practitioner and returned to school to better the care of premature infants.  I pioneered that role in two major medical centers.  Yet I felt the pressure from this work was unmatched to the monetary compensation I was receiving.  I had to learn to say no.  I played around with the idea of quitting my job for years. 

What held me back?  Others’ expectations of course simply reflecting my own and the nice salary I was making.   My ego was quite flattered for others to know that I, like a medical doctor, could prescribe.  For a time, I allowed others to influence my decision to live from my passion.  I would find reasons to stay.  I did love working with parents and their babies.  That is until one day I had some thoughts running through my head.  Is the money holding me hostage here?  As you know, it’s actually a trend in our society.  The security from work and my marriage kept me from living fully.  How long can we give our souls away living a life we dislike, finding reasons to stay: home addition, vacation to pay for, keeping up with the Jones, etc.

Then one day, out of the blue, after months of promising myself to quit, I just blurted it out: Today is my last day!” My mind said:”What are you doing?  Have you gone mad?” while my spirit said: “It’s about time!”  A secretary approached me and asked “Are you independently wealthy?”  I laughed and said: “Who am I to argue?” 

I chose relationships that challenged my very core to live authentically.  This actually dissolved my marriage as I was given a choice: to stay or grow.  I realized it was a spiritual death rather than a physical one.  I later even pushed a lover away telling him: “I can’t possibly let the world know I am in love with you” (because of embarrassment to his appearance).  It was one of my greatest heartbreaks because I listened to what others said rather than follow the guidance of what I felt inside.  To judge it: I was totally run by ego.  Yet I learned a huge lesson in the process:  Follow your heart always! for that is where your bliss is accessed. 

Looking outside myself for the answers was a life run by someone else’s perspective based on their experience, their angle of the world rather than my own.  Walking in my shoes (and I have many styles & many pairs…) or barefoot on the grass is crucial!  Accepting that a body was given to me as the vehicle to experience through was another revelation.  I learned about shapeshifting.  Be with the body you were given or own your creative mastery and change into who you truly wish to look like at all levels: physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.  “Let go of excuses and move into LIVING LIFE.  “Live your life in this very moment.  Have the courage to let go of your story” became the motto I now share with others.

I have had trials and tribulations, chaos that attempted and actually threw me off course.  I gained a lot of experience through a spiritual divorce where we were both alive physically yet worlds apart spiritually.  I made a choice to grow spiritually and got divorced with our two children being young.  I chose how to act and react.  Will it be from a state of love, openness and acceptance or from fear and mistrust?  At times I felt as if there was no choice yet there always is.  It’s called ‘free-will’.   Regaining my power and choosing wisely as decisions determined the future I created for not only myself but my children.  Many lessons, many bridges to cross.  I have learned and now with many perspectives, I am here to help others on their journey.  We are, at any given moment, to experience ‘Heaven on Earth’, one choice away. 

Join me in the dance of life as you learn to release your pain and experience joy, peace & serenity, a gift waiting for you to accept NOW.